Updated: May 20
On April 10, 2011, I embarked on the path of the 𝗪𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐫. 💪🏼
I stepped into my Ritual Master 1 class hanging on by a thread. I was 15. I was depressed, suicidal, and I felt like I was constantly drowning with no way out. I also had lots of anxiety because I was extremely psychic with no guidebook on how to control my senses – I was like the Long Island Medium without the glamorous paycheque.
I had no clue why I was in the RM class aside from a voice in my head telling me I had to be there. I saved and invested all of my money to pay for the class, and I worked miracles to skip midterm exams so that I could take time off from school to attend the class.
The two days were challenging, and insightful, but it wasn’t until the initiation at the end that made it all real.
“𝗪𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐨𝐟,” a man spoke as a sword touched the top of my head.
I didn’t know what those words meant, or the responsibility that the initiation held, but in that moment, I felt the crippling depression lift from my body; I felt it lift from my soul. And the voice in my head told me that I was going to be ok.
For the first time in my life, I felt safe, I had hope, and it felt like I had returned home. The transformation was so powerful, that it didn’t just change my life, it saved it.
Since then, I’ve been through many great times and many shit-shows in my life, but since that day, I’ve had the wisdom, tools, and the powers thereof with me so that I could conquer whatever came my way.
Before I started walking this path of the Warrior, I was so shy that I was terrified of my own shadow. Now, I’m a confident and strong woman who constantly challenges herself to grow. I ended up graduating high school on the honour roll, I graduated from the University of Toronto with a double honours degree in Sociology and Environmental Studies, I became a 2x published author, started my own business, I run a weekly podcast on Clubhouse with my best friend Sarah Hauch, and have volunteered my services for many non-profit organizations. But most importantly, I am comfortable in my own skin, and I love who I am.
Alongside all of the victories I’ve had out in the world, I’ve continued to study with The Modern Mystery School. I have travelled to Japan for high-level training, became a Deshi instructor for the Warriors of Light program, and I have worked alongside the Admin and INT teams to help facilitate international programs both as a teacher, and as an administrator.
What I love most about the school is that it focuses a lot on royalty. The leaders of the MMS are constantly reminding the students that they are royalty - that you, yes, you are royalty! This gets illustrated not only in the teachings but also in how the leaders live their life. The leaders of the school are known to dress very fashionably, drive nice cars, eat good quality food, they take care of their health, they treat others with respect, many of them are business owners that dictate their own salary and schedules, and they are always giving back to their communities.
The word royalty can leave a sour taste in people's mouths, and this was something that was hard for me to stomach at 15. Me, royalty? Haha, good joke! I also never cared for flashy cars or to dress well (hello jeans and a baggy sweatshirt that hides my curves because I was insecure AF!). But dictating my own salary and having the freedom to make my own schedule? No more working for $11.20/hour? No more punch clocks? Absolute freedom? That's something I could get behind!! Having loving and respectful relationships? Yes please! Honouring my body instead of abusing it with an eating disorder because I don't love myself? Tell me more!
And to this day, royalty is something that I am constantly working on and have mastered on various levels. I now dress nice 90% of the time because it makes feel good. I eat healthy organic food and exercise regularly; I actually weigh less now than I did at 15. I have loving and respectful relationships with all of my family and friends; all of my relationships elevate my life. And I've secured multiple streams of income and a career that I love that gives me a freedom and flexibility that I am eternally grateful for - no more punch clocks!!!!
The Founder of the Modern Mystery School, Gudni Gudnason, taught me how to respect myself, and has constantly reminded me of my greatness, even when I didn't believe in myself. Ipsissimus Hideto Nakagome taught me the importance of beauty and has always reminded me that this life is meant to be enjoyed; that we should not be suffering; we should express our beauty in every aspect of our life. Ipsissimus Dave Lanyon has showed me what it means to be a true warrior of light, and he taught me how to manage and eliminate my negative emotions; for a suicidal teen who was drowning in her emotions, this is truly some of the most valuable wisdom I've gained.
There are far more women in leadership roles in the MMS that would take hours to explain what each of them have taught me. However, I can say with confidence that these goddesses are the biggest role models in my life. In a world where we rank role models on how thiccc their asses are, how full their lips are, or how much money they can throw in the air while disrespecting their peers, I was a very lost teenager and I had no one to look up to. The women of the Modern Mystery School have shared true wisdom on what it means to be a woman and how powerful I really am. They taught me how to wield my feminine energy to be strong, nurturing, passionate, and loving for myself and others.
Although the tools and teachings of the lineage are important, I really believe its the people that bring the magick to life!
The Modern Mystery School may not be for everyone. In fact, when you reach a certain level of the path there are many requirements and training that you must attend in order to stay certified as a practitioner of the school. In my 10 years of studying, I never saw these requirements as burdens, but rather opportunities to continue growing and learning about myself.
I continue to study with this school because I LOVE what it brings to my life!
But I also know that spirituality and faith can never be pushed on people, so I always respect people’s boundaries and world-views when they do not match mine - and I especially don't chase clients down when they don't want to work with me. However, I do often promote The Modern Mystery School and it’s teachings because it’s a path that worked for me (and thousands of others), so perhaps it can work for the other people in my life.
I'm eternally grateful to be a part of The Modern Mystery School. The people in this organization turned me from a zero to my own personal hero. This lineage showed me how to be a leader in my life. I love who I am. I love what I do...
... and not everyone can say that.
My hope in sharing my experience is to remind you that you too can walk throughout life loving yourself, loving what you do, and being your own hero. Life isn't about suffering. Life is about adventure, learning, abundance, and joy!
You deserve the best. You are royalty.
In the words of my great friend Mufasa, "Remember who you are."